Thursday, February 09, 2006
retarded day.today was a day that i did not very much enjoy.
during class, i was already being ignored.
and that felt like crap.
then i started doing some work,
since i have a heavy load to cover.
then i get called down,
and i find out a surprise.
one that i don't think is appropriate,
but apparently it was.
until now, i still think they took it too seriously.
so now i'm home, at half day of school.
after the meeting, i approached her,
but her...she was not as close as i thought.
guess we're not fine after all,
i called her, yet she just answered me
with a whatever voice. i apporached her,
slowly. cuz i didnt know what to really do.
at this point, all i wanted was a hug...
from anyone. just anyone.
but it couldnt be from her.
she nodded and i told her what happened.
i didnt see much of a reaction,
probably because she didnt really care.
i dont know, i have so much in my head right now.
i approached a few others along the way to get
my stuff to leave the school. some listened,
some didnt. some that i just didnt want to talk to.
i just...really find this day to be a messed up day.
so here i am, doing my work at home.
becuase of this, it seems to have screwed up my schedules.
i dont even know what's going on anymore.
God what's happening?
what are you trying to teach me?
what am i supposed to learn?
i do not know.
help me please.
¤¤ stan blogged at
12:24:00 PM
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2 Comments:
poy, you always give me encouragement when im down and now all of a sudden i dont know what to say.... so please take care... rmb, my phone is open to you too you know it. i'll give you a hug tomorrow. take care please.... smile, but if you need to cry, bawl it all out and you'll feel a little lighter
yeah.
i find that our school is slowly becoming more shallow. it's not the fault of any individual, but the school body as a whole. i'm sure we're all very deep people, you stan, who i am certain is a deeper person than others (hmm, i have no right to say that, but i just did, o well)
can't we all just... get along?
...guess it's harder than it seems when all the barriers are turning invisible rather than being broken down.
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