-- SLK32 --

Saturday, February 26, 2005

waiting with a nervous heart and trembling with fear...ahh!!!! :(

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Anonymous said...: hey you.
hope you do well.
funny how i have to get my g1 ha.
TOOTLES is forever mine.; 1:29 PM
helen said...: crossin my fingers tooo...g2 *sweet*; 3:50 PM

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¤¤ stan blogged at 3:40:00 PM

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Thursday, February 24, 2005

hehe. =)

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¤¤ stan blogged at 6:00:00 PM

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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

might as well rip open my heart and squish it.
why am i hating life so much as we speak. i hate the stuff i go through, i hate the stuff i have to go through and i hate absolutely everything right now.

Friends i love. close friends i love. family i love. God...i sorta love.

what is there to say more? i don't feel like anything right now, and i especially don't feel like any work. i just wish we can drop all this shit. why must everything boggle together and bother me at the same time? fark you work. i hate you.

just like macbeth says, i envy Duncan for he does not have to suffer through any pain or worry about anything.

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aivoz said...: haloha!! when your feeling blue, just think of fairy editor flapping her wings like a chicken attempting to fly!!! lol.. coz i have the magic ability to make people smile! anyways.. dude.. im always here to talk for you k?? don't be afraid to like shake me or punch me if you need to get something out! lol.. take care! oooh! and we came up with an awesome title page! lol; 10:25 PM

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¤¤ stan blogged at 8:34:00 PM

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Monday, February 14, 2005

right after writing the post below, i just immediately had a feeling...why does my life cycle seem to like to repeat itself? didn't i feel such like a failure or whatever the hell in the earlier months? then i fixed it and picked up myself. then the burdens grew again and i fell. then the burdens grow again now...and i think about the same ideas and the same shit. is this a game? cuz i've had enough of this kinda shit.. i personally hate it. wtf is all i can say.

correct me if i'm wrong, but my language is inappropriate?
yes i know already, don't need to tell me. i've noticed all my bad languages are crawling back and everything takes over me again. will i change that? i don't know, maybe is all i can say. i have other stuff to worry about first.

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rahella said...: there you are. on the other side of the computer lab. concentrating on i unno what. oh well cheer up stan. when things seem to go bad and it doesnt seem to change one bit, try changing your attitude. it might work :); 9:29 AM
curt said...: hey mann sorry that stuff is sort of =/ for you right now..but yeah i guess if life was one big joyride then we wouldn't need Him up there watching out for us right? keep your head up man, it's hard sometimes, but try and look at the good things in life, all the stuff God has blessed us with =); 6:23 PM

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¤¤ stan blogged at 8:22:00 PM

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it's really funny how i'm back on blogging now. i have thought that there wasn't a need for one of these anymore because life seems to be pulling together nicely in most aspects: friends, family, and whatever the hell. but it seems like i was wrong. sure things are getting better in some aspects, but there's also so many things that are downfalling. one after another, i realize the troubles coming forth. Each piling up again, and the burden that i carry around my shoulders gains another pound--more and more as each thing reveals itself. how do i handle this kind of thing? i don't really know. and honestly i don't even want to face it right now, cuz i just think everything's against me sort of thing. how i want to let go of everything right now and just live a mild life. i just want to get off all this shit, all this school stuff, all these burdens and just live a worldly life... why don't i do that? honest opinion, i do not know. i want to know why i'm still striving and still trying once after once after another. sure i have reasons, but my burdens getting heavy and i'm not in the shape to hold it anymore. i just want one long break, i don't really mind if it's like a lifetime break right now. burden's too heavy for me right now. God said He'll never give a burden that we cannot handle ourselves...but see, i don't see how that works right now because i do not agree with it. i really don't feel like fighting this battle...why not just let the opponents win? then it'll be over and end of story...seems much easier.

but whatever the hell, enough blogging now. i still have shitloads to write about for english and asp isp.. plus some math homework to do. so bye.

i really ask for God's guidance right now because i'm sinking as we speak. my language is back and my thinkin has changed; i don't even know how to strive anymore.