Saturday, February 11, 2006
more than i can imagine.what did this situation do to me?
what did it bring?
it's more than i thought and can imagine.
it's brought my self-esteem even
lower than where it stands previously.
it's brought troubles onto my shoulders,
more than i can carry.
it's brought troubles onto my mother,
because now the schools bugging my mom.
it's brought troubles to my grandmother,
because it got her worried and she keeps bringing it back up.
it's brought even more troubles onto my mom,
cuz my grandmother is taking this little thing and making it
seem more than it is; and in turn screaming at my mother for doing
a bad job in raising me and all that crap.
it's brought me 0's in my school life,
so that will affect my marks; for my final year to university.
it's brought me shame,
becuase now people look at me as if i'm some bad kid from the block.
it's brought me to feel like crap because i have never
been suspended in my life, and this is the first.
it's brought me to feel absolute failure feelings,
because i've failed to live up and be a good kid for my mother.
it's brought me so much crap that i can barely imagine,
more and more shows up as i live on the days.
it's brought me just so much stress,
at first i thought i can handle it.
but the more i live it, the more i think about it,
the more that's going on...i feel the harshness in it.
the schools asked me what can they do for me to help me
in my situation that i'm in.
honestly, there's so many things that they can do.
what about start lessening the amount of work?
i just want one bit of relaxation.
that's all i ask for.
i've been so worked up,
i want to cry.
i want to cry.
i want to cry.
i want to die.
someone please remove my life,
because i cannot take my own.
for it's against my faith,
i'm just so upset.
i'm going to fall over.
i need some guidance.
¤¤ stan blogged at
11:54:00 PM
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1 Comments:
i'd like to catch you when you fall, but I doubt I'm that good of a support.
stay strong.
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