Tuesday, January 17, 2006
to even give you a glimpse of what i feel.to even show you a glimpse of what i have in my head
and heart right now is simply un-doable.
i have so much in my head, seriously.
all the stress is building up little by little,
and some by big proportions.
i'm so utterly effed in the head,
that i'm starting to lose it.
why am i that failure?
seriously.
why can i not be smart for once.
what happened to that old me,
WHAT THE HELL.
i'm really overwhelmed right now,
i just want to cry, but i'm so tired to.
i have to study, but i'm so freaking tired
and unmotivated to go on, cuz it does not
make a difference in the end...i'll fail anyways.
my dream about going to waterloo?
i don't even know how that is going to be possible.
am i going to make it anywhere actually?
maybe. if somehow and some time that i become truly lucky.
i've lost complete hope in myself really.
i hate tests; cuz i can't effing do them.
yet i keep getting them. is this how life
likes to fark me over with? cuz my marks
are getting chipped away after each and
new test that i get. why? cuz im a fucking
failure.
yes people, the guy that you knew
who thinks he's a failure from a year ago,
he is back. because sadly, that's the ultimate truth.
i'm a failure.
what more can i propose...
eff everything.
¤¤ stan blogged at
10:56:00 PM
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2 Comments:
Stan...you are not a failure. you may feel like one, but hey, always remember that God don't make no junk!! : ) and never forget that He loves you and that I love you!! keep on going bro. you can make it. i believe in you!! Whatever happens, God has a plan and purpose even if we may never understand the reason why right now. Hang in there. and if you ever need a hug, you know where to look.
in Him,
fellow sister in Christ
this is probably the dumbest suggestion ever... but i think we need a study group.
well... I could use one... it's kinda difficult to study when you think you know what you need to know, but end up failing anyways.
I know that you're a heck more diligent than a lot of other people in our grade... but unfortunately, hard work doesn't equal success. Could the genius lend the unfortunate a helping hand?
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