Wednesday, November 23, 2005
last minute before i sleep...last minute before i sleep,
stuff's on my mind..
i remember today, i was upset,
i fought, i ranted, i vented, and i sat.
i remember today... i watched tv;
not having the mood to work at all.
and waiting for a reply to a phone call.
nothing.
i remember myself crawling onto my bed,
and just lying there; speechless.
tears about to come, but held it in.
shaken that i feel, i still lay there...
doing..nothing.
just lying there.
more tears wanted to escape down my eyes,
but my eyes have been so dry,
from the previous tears;
that it hurts to even cry.
i couldn't.. i just lied there; speechless.
something happened; and my mind just went blank...
blank to the point that i cannot even remember,
i think i cried myself to sleep,
i am not sure; but i do know when i got off bed,
i was clueless of whats happening.
i went back onto my phone, and still..nothing.
i felt lonely...lonely that no one really cared,
wanted to call her, but there was no point.
and at the same time, i'm still waiting for another call.
but nothing.
so last minute before i sleep,
i bring to you my attention;
- her, her, and her. (the 3 of my life)
- him and him (the 2 brothers of my life)
- God (the one and only)
- and to my surprise, another her.
i'm shaken man,
and try to remind myself, "take it easy stan"
but that's not working.
God take it all,
becuase without you, i'm going to fall.
¤¤ stan blogged at
1:45:00 AM
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1 Comments:
I wanted to do something today but I didn't.
I'm sorry.
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