-- SLK32 --

Saturday, November 26, 2005

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to the person (that i have no clue who it is),
who posted on "the" blog; i must say thank you.
i dont know who you are, but thanks for your time of caring.
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i've been out all day yesterday,
since starting of school to 3am,
celebrating arthur's birthday.
it was fun, becuase i was able to put
myself out of the reality that i am in.
i was able to smile and laugh together.
but now it's over, and i must define something.
something that i thought about when i got back.

defintion of a best friend.

i asked a few people what a best friend to them is,
and this is what i gathered:
- a person that you can truly rely on
- a person that you can share your feelings with
- a person that can know your worse of worse
- a person that you can look for when you doubt
- a person that you can expect to forgive you
- a person that you can expect to endure anything with
- a person that you can feel close with, with or without contact
- a person that you can torment to the worst, and still stick by you
- a person that will not give up on you
- a person that will protect you from any kinds of doubts or troubles
- a person that will cry with you when you are sad
- a person that will share the burdens on your shoulders with no doubt
- a person that will take care of you when you feel most down
- a person that will hold onto you when you feel most weak
- a person that will not betray you
- a person that you can ultimately trust with all your life

Reflection

i have done this for you, and i do not know what else you expect.
i have done what i can to the best of my abilities,
i have thrown every last bit of effort that i can into the ring,
into enduring the battles and sufferances.
i just do not get how you can "wrap up all the history" and throw it out

who stuck by you when you needed it most?
who let you call me every single minute, becuase you felt bad?
who took on your secrets?
who tried to cheer you up when you told me the "secret"?
who would throw away all their own troubles, to take on yours?
who would try their most to satisfy your needs, even when they're most tired?
who took on every bit of pain in their heart, to sustain a friendship?
who has not given up on you for one little bit?
(even with everyone telling me that you are not worth it)
who cried for their best friend for continuous hours;
to the point of having their eyes swollen shut?

i did.
you once told me i was your best friend,
you acknowledged it, and told me.
please, do share with me what happened now then.

i'll stick a note to myself:
whatever happens,
you are my best friend, nonetheless.

1 Comments:

Anonymous said...: dude...i'm praying for you. been reading your blogs for the past bit. trust God with EVERYTHING. He makes it all better in time. never forget He's the best best friend you'll ever have. He's been there for me when i needed someone the most.

in Him,
fellow sister in Christ; 10:29 PM