-- SLK32 --

Saturday, May 07, 2005

can someone?

argh, may i ask, can someone just help me live this life?
cuz i'm kinda lost...as in nothing seems right, but yet they are right. i can't seem to focus on my school life, but only on certain things...for example, others around me. i'll help them at any cost. but myself, i don't even really care...or seems like it. i don't even have the same motivation to work for school anymore...i don't have the motivation to really go on with this school life or this busy life. all i have in my head right now is God, others, and this other thing. i'm sinning as we speak, and i'm hurting God...but i'm continuing to confess and ask for forgiveness. i may seem so "godly" to some people..or so they say i'm strong? but definitely not.. i do not feel any of that is true. my mind is taking everything and changing it into something of a negative effect. i don't konw if this is something you would call good...cuz it's good and bad. i don't even konw why... i just want silence now. music useta come flowing out of my room and keeps me so motivated...but now, music is sorta bothering me. i useta be able to drive a car fast and definite, but now.. i'm so sloppy. i useta be able to be bold about things, but now i just do whatever. something wrong? i don't even know. actually i do konw, it's me. that's the problem...can someone end it?

prayers, prayers, and more prayers.
i'm praying, but i'm falling too. what is there to do now? staying faithful to God. i commit myself to you, Lord. help me out.

let me focus, let me regain that focus; as i'm a camera that lost its focus.

Saturday, May 07, 2005

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