Friday, November 05, 2004
well really, it's been a tough battle throughout my times with my closest friend and all. had our problems between us and it just really got us departed...not too happy about the situation, and not happy about myself of how i let that happen. i was pretty stupid to screw up such a wonderful relationship. yeah, people tell me that i shouldn't be uptight about it, or i should let go of it, or i should loosen up, or that it will get better within time... yeah, thanks guys, it's wonderful for your support from all your wonderful words... but still, it's realy hard to keep up with everything....i'm trying really hard to just sustain my confidence with this friend...and it's ripping me up whenever i let my guard down, and satan takes this to use for his advantage...either make me upset and cuss about it, or make me do something ungodly. it's really difficult guys... but i'll hang in there... but i'll definitely need you guys to support me throughout all the times....i dunno, yeah i have confidence and faith in God for bringing us back together...but it's still really hard to sustain that faith... i'm really worldly and i'm easily shaken....so i doubt on God sometimes...matter fact a lotta times...but i'm still able to shape up at certain points with friends that have not given up on me. they kept supporting me throughout all the times..... it's wonderful guys, and i appreciate it.
Bri, thanks brother.. you've never let me down and you've never let me go. you always stood there and shot the words that were necessarily into me. you ain't scared of "losing" a friend...but you jsut care about getting the point across...thanks so much for that.... if it ain't for those times, then i'd probably failed in this "mission" probably about 10 times....thanks man. never forget your doings for me...owe ya big time.. yeah we're brothers, and you're probably gonna say "none needed" like how i always say that to you whenever you say thanks.. .but honestly man, straight from the heart, THANKS.
you're one that i can call brother, don't let that change. I'll try my best to sustain it all... but promise me one thing, try your best too.. i can't afford to lose such a close brother. i've lost people in my life, and you know those people are, just not another one.. i definitely won't be able to take it. Best of luck to you and me. God bless us both, and take great care of yourself ok? i'll always stick around you...but when the times i can't, remember....There's always people to listen up to you..OK? and there's that one person that will NEVER let you go, no matter what..--God.
Also for all the others that supported me throughout my hard times...it's still ongoing, and i just keep asking for your kindness to accepting me...even when i start to blow up...which usually is related to this. and i just ask for prayers from every one of you....thanks guys...owe you all big time.
This simple life of mine is made worthy and worth living cuz i have you guys standing by me all the time..plus God of course. thanks for all of the things each of you have done for me...you guys know what they are individually... i don't need to post about it for the public to see.. you know i'm thankful for you and your stuff for me....that's what counts the most...thanks guys. Just...well...you guys probably know.. i still hope for "that"...just keep praying about it.. that's all i really ask for....i dun care for a car, or money..what i want is her back.
-God bless all of you.
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well what do i say except be strong. i know what its like to go through tough stuff but this is unimagineable to me. God wont give you anything that you cant handle. so stan just accept it. live through it. but continue to love her. miss her. and maybe in time it'll change. maybe it wont. be u have memories of her. and u'll have a lifetime of friendship. with you stan.. friendship NEVER dies!
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Dani: daw jeh! (thanks in chinese) haha... yeah..gotta thank you for your message...like yeah, i've heard it many many many times from various people.. but still hard to keep it up...but really, i guess i just need you guys to be there...really helps.
Rach: haha, maybe ;)
but oh well, what is there to be ashamed of? nothing =) lalala.....thanks for the blog =D thanks for the faith for it to happen...appreciate it deeply. Glad to see that we've gotten closer this year....realy happy about it. Keep it GROWING (in God too =D)!!!
IM NOT GAY! =) hang in ther corner =)
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